I feel like shit. I think everyone around me forgot Valentine's day. I called Phillip and he was asleep and didn't say anything.. I was already feeling shitty so I didn't say anything either. I am depressed. What's new, right? I am so depressed. I want to cry. I seriously don't know how much longer I can live with this depression and anxiety. I have let it take over my life. I want to live, but I don't want to live like this. I can't live like this anymore and lucky me- my doctor is out of the office for the whole month of February. I keep getting worse and worse. They don't know what to do with my medication and they are trying to get me off the one medication that I do need. I am so tired of fighting. I'm exhausted. I want to give up, but I know I can't. Eating seems to be a chore. Showering seems to be a chore. Everything I used to enjoy has become a chore.
Why should I work my ass of for Phillip's gifts when I feel like he doesn't even give a damn?
Why should I work my ass of for Phillip's gifts when I feel like he doesn't even give a damn?
2 comments:
Haley,
You can do this. One minute at a time. I've been thinking about you and missing you on two peas. Try to remember to look for the good things. YOU WILL MAKE IT!!!!!!!
Lori In SC (magentals from 2peas)
Haley..darling. ;)
You are so strong, and I'm constantly amazed by the person you are. I've always enjoyed our chats, and you make me smile. I appreciate your friendship, and it saddens me to read that things are especially tough for you right now. even when you feel like even the small things are impossible chores, keep in mind that it will get better. Maybe find new things you might enjoy, who knows you might find something you're truly passionate about and it will give you back some of that life motivation you're looking for right now. I miss ya on MSN, and 2Peas...never really see ya around anymore. Take Care Girlie! :)
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